I have lived a fairly sheltered life. I have grown up in comfort and have every necessary thing available to me. My parents paid for my college, my car, my insurance, and my rent. I am currently living under their roof, but soon I will not.
I have wanted to be married for a while now. I have gotten disheartened about having a future relationship because there hasn't been much activity in the "boy department." However, I know I will marry one day and that I will have children.
One day, I was praying to the Lord for my future husband and children. I wanted it to happen sometime fairly soon. I was telling the Lord that I would teach my kids what I know and so on, until I realized that I felt I didn't know that much. Granted, almost everyone is not ready for marriage and kids, but I felt like now was not the time for me. In order to be a successful mother and wife, I need to know who I am first. I need to be confident in the abilities I have and also have an awesome relationship with the Lord so that when trials come, I will have a connection to higher strength. It's not that I don't have these things right now. I just felt I needed to mature a little more before starting this next big leg of my journey.
When I realized that this was not the time to have a family, I realized that the time I have now is my preparation time. Now is the time for me to become who I will be when I get married. On my wedding day, I will not instantly change into a selfless, giving person for my husband. Those traits need to be cultivated now.
With this in mind, I have begun my more specified journey into my specific purpose as an individual.
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